You don’t feel it at your first football game of your senior year in high school. You don’t feel it at your last either. You don’t feel it applying to colleges, or getting accepted to your top school. You certainly don’t feel it at prom. Or graduation, regardless of what you may feel in the moment. That’s not really it. You have no idea what it is at that moment. You may think you feel it when you say goodbye to your best friend and your family. That’s the sneak peek. Moving in is a blur. Your family leaving is numb. Meeting new people is exciting. Starting class is scary. You get used to the class. People in the halls become less friendly once they’ve become satisfied with their friends. The first week of college isn’t forever. You won’t feel it when you break up with your boyfriend of 2 and a half years to “experience college.” Your first frat party is weird. No one there is feeling it either. They just feel the burning of vodka in their liver. So do you, don’t kid yourself. You’re not above them. You only feel it once the high of being in college is over, anywhere from 1 month to 3 months. You feel it once you’re sitting in your room alone, utterly dissatisfied with yourself, crying. You feel it when the frat guy you thought could change lived up to your previous expectations of a frat guy. You feel it when there’s no one to vent to, when no one knows you well enough to say the right things or to let you unload on them. You can’t lean on anyone yet. After a month? No. You will slowly realize that no one really cares about you yet. Not like the people back home. You feel it when you remember your first football game of your senior year in high school. When you remember prom and graduation. And you’ll certainly feel it when you look back on your goodbyes and realize there was so much left unsaid.